Dream 1:
My mother is in my house and I suddenly notice a little boy in our papasan chair. He’s between 10-12, with his legs drawn up, just watching me. I see him and get the chills because I know he’s a spirit. He’s not wearing a shirt and has beads on his head. He dressed as if from Africa, but I’m not sure what part. I assume where my father’s people are from. I turn to my mother and whisper in her ear — “Do you see a boy in that chair?” She looks at me quizzically and shakes her head no. At some point my mother leaves the room and the boy and I are alone. I sit on the bed and he walks up to me. He says many things, but I can only remember the meat of our conversation. It went one of two ways — He either told me that he was one of my spirit guides, and his name is Ayine (Aye-yin-ae), or that he was my son, soon to come to me in the seen world, and I should name him Ayine. I feel very strongly that it was the second one, but I don’t see how that would be possible.
Dream 2:
All the windows in our house are open. A large, fuzzy, orange cat is in the back yard. He sees me see him and runs to the front. I have the door open and I rush to close it. He is the tormentor cat of the neighborhood. I must fight him from coming inside. He has a cat posse behind him. I then need to intercede between he and my own cat, Diego. They fight through the open window and I worry about their claws tearing down the screen. I close the window.
Today’s cards:
It’s interesting how Honesty and Ilbe were right beside each other in the deck before I pulled them out — they’re numbers 40 and 41. This isn’t the first time this has happened with them. Honesty could refer to my writing for others tonight, but I think he’s linked to G. Hobyah in being honest with myself and addressing my fears. I think Death signifies the end of my old ways. My Living Gandhi project is going to bring about many changes. Last night alone, I had to decline going out to drink with two different sets of people, and it felt good. In addition to ending things, Death signifies new beginnings. She’s right beside She of the Cruach — also representing nurturing and positive change. I think G. Hobyah tells me about lingering fears I may have about this new phase. People are going to fall away and I may feel less connected to the seen world of people. The Guardian at the Gate also represents a new phase of life. After passing through the gate, there’s no going back to old ways. Much of the reading could signify my wedding coming up next week. Ilbe brings back that which was thought lost. For so long I’ve been caught up in the physical world. Meditating and communing with Spirit was a big part of my life. This is its return.
unforgotten messages 